Sharon Olds has been my favorite poet for several years.  I discovered her during my "Intro to Literary Genres" class.  I was a senior English Lit major taking the class with several non-traditional business students, I was bored.  The instructor, thankfully, took pity on me and gave me several alternative and challenging assignments.  One such assignment led me to Sharon Olds.  Specifically her poem "Sex Without Love." It's a beautiful poem that prompted me to buy The Wellspring, and since then every single book of poetry she's ever published.

Today I share one of my favorites.  It can be found in Strike Sparks: Selected Poems 1980-2000.


I did not stand at the altar, I stood
at the foot of the chancel steps, with my beloved,
and the minister stood on the top step
holding the open Bible.  The church
was wood, painted ivory inside, no people--God's
stable perfectly cleaned.  It was night,
spring--outside, a moat of mud,
and inside, from the rafters, flies
fell onto the open Bible, and the minister
tilted it and brushed them off.  We stood
beside each other, crying slightly
with fear and awe.  In truth, we had married
that first night, in bed, but now we stood
in history--what our bodies had said,
mouth to mouth, we now said publicly,
gathered together, death.  We stood 
holding each other by the hand, yet I also
stood as if alone, for a moment,
just before the vow, though taken
years before, took.  It was a vow
of the present and the future, and yet I felt it
to have some touch of the distant past
or the distant past on it, I felt
the wordless, dry, crying ghost of my
parents' marriage there, somewhere
in the echoing space--perhaps one of the
plummeting flies, bouncing slightly
as it hit forsaking all others, then was brushed
away.  I felt as if I had come
to claim a promise--the sweetness I'd inferred
from their sourness, and at the same time that I
had come, congenitally unworthy, to beg.
And yet, I had been working toward this hour
all my life.  And then it was time
to speak--he was offering me, no matter
what, his life.  That is all I had o
do, that evening, to accept the gift
I had longed for--to say I had accepted it,
as if being asked if I breathe. Do I take?
I do. I take as he takes--we have been
practicing this.  Do you bear this pleasure? I do.

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